I'm really ripping my hair out about this job...BLARGH! The only person that's really been helpful is Theresa, for the mere fact that she listens to me bitch, among other things.It's not enough that the pigs manhandle me but they treat me like I'm an idiot...when in fact I know more about computers, the internet and apparently marketing than they do (go figure). I beg and pray to get one...and it turns out to be such a bust...That's what really burns me. And how am I supposed to explain this to the troll? I already did try to a little bit but it came out all wrong...BLARGH again.
Fuck that, on to other things...Testament AND Iron Maiden are coming up soon...really stoked about that. Lots of shows coming up actually...tis the season :D I never get tired of seeing bands, as crazy as that is. I always love the atmosphere, especially for hardcore shows. I actually saw and enjoyed Waking the Cadaver at Lucky 13 last Saturday and they were GOOD. The crowds are so different...no stuffy metal head elitists standing around whining about those who actually want to start a pit or make some kind of movement to the beat. And this year will be the first time I've ever seen Maiden....Brilliant. Paganfest is on the 21st or 22nd (can't remember and I'm not looking it up for this) and then MDF that weekend. MOST brilliant. It's just going to be great!
My troll and I have been together for almost a year here in just a month or so...what do you buy someone for a year anniversary...that isn't tools? haha. I want it to be something nice...Bah, my mind is too hazed for a decent processed thought right now. Sometimes I still get flash backs and I still get insecure...that's the only part of me I really dislike. That distrust I let others instill in me...pisses me off. I can't see myself with any other, so that's why it's a little overwhelming I suppose. I love this little bastard...even though he's snoring over the volume of my TV at the moment :-\
Christ, Fear and Loathing is such an amazingly put together movie. I never get tired of watching it...I always find new things in it and new meaning in the things that are said...Amazing how some people live...
Well this was all very random...but I think in random thoughts and usually speak in broken sentences. Yay freaking varily.
Fuck that, on to other things...Testament AND Iron Maiden are coming up soon...really stoked about that. Lots of shows coming up actually...tis the season :D I never get tired of seeing bands, as crazy as that is. I always love the atmosphere, especially for hardcore shows. I actually saw and enjoyed Waking the Cadaver at Lucky 13 last Saturday and they were GOOD. The crowds are so different...no stuffy metal head elitists standing around whining about those who actually want to start a pit or make some kind of movement to the beat. And this year will be the first time I've ever seen Maiden....Brilliant. Paganfest is on the 21st or 22nd (can't remember and I'm not looking it up for this) and then MDF that weekend. MOST brilliant. It's just going to be great!
My troll and I have been together for almost a year here in just a month or so...what do you buy someone for a year anniversary...that isn't tools? haha. I want it to be something nice...Bah, my mind is too hazed for a decent processed thought right now. Sometimes I still get flash backs and I still get insecure...that's the only part of me I really dislike. That distrust I let others instill in me...pisses me off. I can't see myself with any other, so that's why it's a little overwhelming I suppose. I love this little bastard...even though he's snoring over the volume of my TV at the moment :-\
Christ, Fear and Loathing is such an amazingly put together movie. I never get tired of watching it...I always find new things in it and new meaning in the things that are said...Amazing how some people live...
Well this was all very random...but I think in random thoughts and usually speak in broken sentences. Yay freaking varily.
- Location:Chair
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
Well I start my job today...The odd thing is I was nervous the entire time I was trying to get hired somewhere...and now I don't even care, LOL. I'm not nervous at all...I wonder if that's a defense mechanism...
Anywho...the weekend went very well. We stayed in and slept on Friday, which is always good for the wallet, and Saturday we went to Hartsdale to visit friends. The UFC was AWESOME, Silva won, just as I predicted! I was the only happy person in the room I think =X Our friends there are just great and I can't wait to go back.
On the way back though, I was reminded too much of home. The hills lull, jagged here and there with protruding rocks and the endless knots of trees and their fallen limbs. If I had to guess where the inspiration for Celtic knots came from...just look out into the woods. They're everything. All of life is just this big knoted puzzle that eventually falls back in on itself. It's a gut wrenching feeling, wanting to be back home...I'm tied to it through my blood. The land I came from, where my mother and father live now, is stained with our blood and sweat from working the Earth for over 100 years. As a child, it was my playground. It was my only friend and I miss it as if it were a human. Pets are buried on that land, pets that showed me unconditional love through the years lay at rest there. I never knew it would have such a hold on me but its not giving in easily.
Things are looking up for me now...Spring is coming too...I wonder what its going to bring me.
Anywho...the weekend went very well. We stayed in and slept on Friday, which is always good for the wallet, and Saturday we went to Hartsdale to visit friends. The UFC was AWESOME, Silva won, just as I predicted! I was the only happy person in the room I think =X Our friends there are just great and I can't wait to go back.
On the way back though, I was reminded too much of home. The hills lull, jagged here and there with protruding rocks and the endless knots of trees and their fallen limbs. If I had to guess where the inspiration for Celtic knots came from...just look out into the woods. They're everything. All of life is just this big knoted puzzle that eventually falls back in on itself. It's a gut wrenching feeling, wanting to be back home...I'm tied to it through my blood. The land I came from, where my mother and father live now, is stained with our blood and sweat from working the Earth for over 100 years. As a child, it was my playground. It was my only friend and I miss it as if it were a human. Pets are buried on that land, pets that showed me unconditional love through the years lay at rest there. I never knew it would have such a hold on me but its not giving in easily.
Things are looking up for me now...Spring is coming too...I wonder what its going to bring me.
- Location:Chair
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:MAURY! again
I GOT A JOB, I GOT A JOB!!!!!
YAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so happy!
!!!!!!!!!!!!Someone buy me a cookie!!!!!!!!!
YAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so happy!
!!!!!!!!!!!!Someone buy me a cookie!!!!!!!!!
- Location:Chair chair chair!
- Mood:
excited - Music:Amy talking in my ear
Me having to be awake right now is completely wrong and I blame trolls everywhere. No, no call me biased but I find them to be the downside to our open society!
Today is looking up. I woke up in a good mood, which is rare, and I'm really excited about my interview, andddd last night, a certain someone finally got the tell off I think he had coming to him. I'm just really afraid it won't be the end of the drama he's brought into "our" lives. I say "our" because there is more than just me involved in the misery...I find it saddening at the same time. What kind of human being is that? What happened to him to make him the dishonest monster that he is today? It's scary, nowadays, knowing what kind of people are breeding...I'm just afraid this joker will knock some girl up and his genetics will go on. I even wonder if his personality may be a flaw in the genetic code...Bah, anyway...I digress. I find that being friends with this guy was like continually watching a mix between Maury and a soap opera. No screaming black women in this one (yet) and Maury isn't there to bestow his awe inspiring authority, but all the same, it's just as melodramatic. I worry for my friend and what this bum is capable of...as for my own safety...HA, I have an attack troll =D I will always worry about my friends more than me, though...that's just my nature. I know that I'll be fine no matter what and I have to make sure they're the same!
In other good news, Mets season is coming...That always makes me happy. My life really isn't as eventful as it used to be =\
Today is looking up. I woke up in a good mood, which is rare, and I'm really excited about my interview, andddd last night, a certain someone finally got the tell off I think he had coming to him. I'm just really afraid it won't be the end of the drama he's brought into "our" lives. I say "our" because there is more than just me involved in the misery...I find it saddening at the same time. What kind of human being is that? What happened to him to make him the dishonest monster that he is today? It's scary, nowadays, knowing what kind of people are breeding...I'm just afraid this joker will knock some girl up and his genetics will go on. I even wonder if his personality may be a flaw in the genetic code...Bah, anyway...I digress. I find that being friends with this guy was like continually watching a mix between Maury and a soap opera. No screaming black women in this one (yet) and Maury isn't there to bestow his awe inspiring authority, but all the same, it's just as melodramatic. I worry for my friend and what this bum is capable of...as for my own safety...HA, I have an attack troll =D I will always worry about my friends more than me, though...that's just my nature. I know that I'll be fine no matter what and I have to make sure they're the same!
In other good news, Mets season is coming...That always makes me happy. My life really isn't as eventful as it used to be =\
- Location:Planted in my chair
- Mood:
anxious - Music:MAURY!
This place and it's sucky work opportunities are eating me alive! I'm becoming obsessive about finding a job. Everything I've been offered has been so far away I can't get to it or it just falls through. I'm a GREAT worker...I'm a fucking workaholic and I NEED to go to work! That's all my day is filled with..just this bitter taste in my mouth...
Sorry, I'm just being whiney I guess. Actually while in the middle of writing this I just had a call for an interview in Manhattan... :-D So now I'm okay...
Women are so emotional...hehe.
Tomorrow night me and a girlfriend are going to a club in Manhattan...I need more people to go so that it's actually fun and not just scary!
Other than that, I have nothing new to report. Thinking about it...I wish I could write again. I miss writing poetry and shit...I was so good at it. :-\
Sorry, I'm just being whiney I guess. Actually while in the middle of writing this I just had a call for an interview in Manhattan... :-D So now I'm okay...
Women are so emotional...hehe.
Tomorrow night me and a girlfriend are going to a club in Manhattan...I need more people to go so that it's actually fun and not just scary!
Other than that, I have nothing new to report. Thinking about it...I wish I could write again. I miss writing poetry and shit...I was so good at it. :-\
- Location:My chair with my mac-n-cheese!
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Katatonia-Evidence
Okay, it's 5 something in the morning, and for some reason I can't go back to sleep. This is a nifty little *2007* survey, so here it is!
JANUARY
1. Who kissed you on new years?
Tasso....and I think Ahmed tried,baha.
2. Did you have a New Year’s Resolution this year?
Actually no, I gave up on those.
3. Does it snow where you live?
Yes.
4. Do you like hot chocolate?
I love it actually. Haven't had any in a while.
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?
HA, no. Tasso wouldn't go near times square last year.
FEBRUARY
1. Who was your Valentine?
Tasso =D
2. When you were little did you buy Valentine’s for the whole class?
Yesss....they turned it into this stupid "make friends" endeavor but we just ended up humiliated if we bought the wrong kinds of Valentine's.
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?
Not really...it is a cute groundhog though.
4. What did you recieve for Valentines Day?
A dinner at Cristos, roses, a few unmentionables. Yeah, it was sweet.
5. What did you give for Valentine’s Day?
He knows ;)
MARCH
1. Are you Irish?
No...I am NOT Irish!
2. Do you like corned beef and cabbage?
I don't like cabbage
3. What did you do for St. Patty’s Day in 2007?
Went to the monkey bar with Kimmie.
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?
YES.
APRIL
1. Do you like the rain?
Yes I dooooooo
2. Will you play an April fool’s joke on anyone this year?
Oh it's on this year.
3. Do you get tons of candy for easter?
I'm going to be celebrating my first Easter with a Greek family. Woooooooo
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?
No.
5. Do you love the month of april?
It's an okay month I gotta say.
MAY
1. What is your favorite flower?
Lillacs.
2. Do you celebrate May 16th: National Piercing Day?
Is that an actual day?
3. Is May anything special to you?
May is my weird month...not sure whether to love it or hate it. It'll also be my 1 year anni this year with the Troll.
JUNE
1. What year did/will you graduate from high school?
2005
2. Do you do anything fun during this Month?
Soak up the sun
3. Have a favorite baseball team?
METS!!!
JULY
1. What did you do on the 4th of July?
We tried to watch the fireworks from the boat but ended up getting rained out.
2. Did you go to the fireworks?
Umm yes as previously stated above
3. Did you blast the A/C all day?
Nope. In WV we didn't have AC. We sweat it out. You yankees and your central air! PFFT! =D
4. Anything big happen?
I honestly can't remember O.O
AUGUST
1. Are you doing anything special at the end of your summer?
Last year...I was getting ready to move here...this year...hopefully vacation!
2. What was your favorite summer memory of ‘07?
I met all the people that have come to be very near and dear to me. It was just a good year.
3. Did you have a sunburn?
Ooooooh yeah.
4. Did you go to the pool a lot?
River, man, RIVER.
SEPTEMBER
1. Will you be attending college/school?
Hopefully this fall I will get to start in on my RN degree. It's looking down though :* (
2. Do you like fall better than summer?
Yes...cause there are nice days in fall.
3. Plan on anything to happen this month?
WORK damnit!
OCTOBER
1. What was your last Halloween costume?
I was an elf, till I got sick of putting all that junk on then I just did the vampire thing.
2. What is your favorite candy?
Anything chocolate.
3. What was your favorite thing(s) about this month?
Evil Taso's birthday I reckon.
NOVEMBER
1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?
Wow, this is the first year I haven't been home for Thanksgiving. I miss my mommy :(
2. What are you thankful for?
Everything.
3. Do you love stuffing?
Hell yes
4.Favorite thing about this month?
Nothing. It's the lead up to Death.
DECEMBER
1. Do you celebrate Christmas?
Yes.
2. Have you ever been kissed under the mistle toe?
Actually I haven't....I'm getting jewed here.
3. Get anything special last year?
Yup
4. What do you want this year?
Something shiney!
5. What do you love most about December?
Being with family.
JANUARY
1. Who kissed you on new years?
Tasso....and I think Ahmed tried,baha.
2. Did you have a New Year’s Resolution this year?
Actually no, I gave up on those.
3. Does it snow where you live?
Yes.
4. Do you like hot chocolate?
I love it actually. Haven't had any in a while.
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?
HA, no. Tasso wouldn't go near times square last year.
FEBRUARY
1. Who was your Valentine?
Tasso =D
2. When you were little did you buy Valentine’s for the whole class?
Yesss....they turned it into this stupid "make friends" endeavor but we just ended up humiliated if we bought the wrong kinds of Valentine's.
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?
Not really...it is a cute groundhog though.
4. What did you recieve for Valentines Day?
A dinner at Cristos, roses, a few unmentionables. Yeah, it was sweet.
5. What did you give for Valentine’s Day?
He knows ;)
MARCH
1. Are you Irish?
No...I am NOT Irish!
2. Do you like corned beef and cabbage?
I don't like cabbage
3. What did you do for St. Patty’s Day in 2007?
Went to the monkey bar with Kimmie.
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?
YES.
APRIL
1. Do you like the rain?
Yes I dooooooo
2. Will you play an April fool’s joke on anyone this year?
Oh it's on this year.
3. Do you get tons of candy for easter?
I'm going to be celebrating my first Easter with a Greek family. Woooooooo
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?
No.
5. Do you love the month of april?
It's an okay month I gotta say.
MAY
1. What is your favorite flower?
Lillacs.
2. Do you celebrate May 16th: National Piercing Day?
Is that an actual day?
3. Is May anything special to you?
May is my weird month...not sure whether to love it or hate it. It'll also be my 1 year anni this year with the Troll.
JUNE
1. What year did/will you graduate from high school?
2005
2. Do you do anything fun during this Month?
Soak up the sun
3. Have a favorite baseball team?
METS!!!
JULY
1. What did you do on the 4th of July?
We tried to watch the fireworks from the boat but ended up getting rained out.
2. Did you go to the fireworks?
Umm yes as previously stated above
3. Did you blast the A/C all day?
Nope. In WV we didn't have AC. We sweat it out. You yankees and your central air! PFFT! =D
4. Anything big happen?
I honestly can't remember O.O
AUGUST
1. Are you doing anything special at the end of your summer?
Last year...I was getting ready to move here...this year...hopefully vacation!
2. What was your favorite summer memory of ‘07?
I met all the people that have come to be very near and dear to me. It was just a good year.
3. Did you have a sunburn?
Ooooooh yeah.
4. Did you go to the pool a lot?
River, man, RIVER.
SEPTEMBER
1. Will you be attending college/school?
Hopefully this fall I will get to start in on my RN degree. It's looking down though :* (
2. Do you like fall better than summer?
Yes...cause there are nice days in fall.
3. Plan on anything to happen this month?
WORK damnit!
OCTOBER
1. What was your last Halloween costume?
I was an elf, till I got sick of putting all that junk on then I just did the vampire thing.
2. What is your favorite candy?
Anything chocolate.
3. What was your favorite thing(s) about this month?
Evil Taso's birthday I reckon.
NOVEMBER
1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?
Wow, this is the first year I haven't been home for Thanksgiving. I miss my mommy :(
2. What are you thankful for?
Everything.
3. Do you love stuffing?
Hell yes
4.Favorite thing about this month?
Nothing. It's the lead up to Death.
DECEMBER
1. Do you celebrate Christmas?
Yes.
2. Have you ever been kissed under the mistle toe?
Actually I haven't....I'm getting jewed here.
3. Get anything special last year?
Yup
4. What do you want this year?
Something shiney!
5. What do you love most about December?
Being with family.
- Location:Wish it was my bed
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Too early for that!
Today hasn't been the best of days. My depression is getting worse and I really don't know what to do about it. I'm not one of those emo kids that goes on and on about the world being bleak, but it's really looking that way. This whole job situation has just eaten away at all that makes me, me. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to ask for help or anything...I'm just stuck. Tasso just keeps telling me not to worry about it. I swear, he wouldn't care if I was missing an eyeball. He doesn't skip a beat and I love him for that.
Help : *(
Help : *(
- Location:In my lonely chair
- Mood:
depressed - Music:Sick Puppies- Take me for everything
Well it's my first live journal entry...and I really don't have dick to say. I have a job interview this evening but other than that, my day has been uneventful.
I do love my boyfriend more than I did yesterday...
That's saying something <3
Wellllll anyway....HI LIVEJOURNAL. How the Hell are ya?
I do love my boyfriend more than I did yesterday...
That's saying something <3
Wellllll anyway....HI LIVEJOURNAL. How the Hell are ya?
- Location:In front of my computer. DUH.
- Mood:
geeky